When Hope Can Kill – By Dr. Lucy Papillon
How Hope Keeps you with the Wrong Person
Reclaim Your Soul for the Right Person
Excerpt from Chapter 1:
You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You
The seed that is to grow
Must lose itself as seed
And they that creep
May graduate through
Chrysalis to wings
Wilt thou, then,
Cling to husks
Which falsely seem to you
"This is a freeway, Jonathan. Don't stop right here… please!"
I was getting more nauseated by the minute, both from fear and from the frantic stopping and starting.
Jonathan yelled, "Get serious. I'll stop anywhere I want. Stop that controlling stuff, right now! I mean it, you idiot. Don't you know better than to try to do that by now?"
He turned sharply into the next lane, barely missing a moving van. I noticed I was hanging onto the purse in my lap, as if that could assuage the terror I was feeling.
"Quit hurting me, you're slamming me against the head rest with your stops and starts. Just go off the next exit and let me drive. You've had too much to drink."
I'd said it, the one thing I knew would set him into a full-on rage. It had slipped out, I was petrified now.
This romantic partner was supposed to fill the gaping hole that I had had in my soul for many years. He was to save me from having to face such a vacuous hole. I had counted on it, I had hoped for it, in fact, hope was the most prevalent feeling I had called on over these many years, it was etched into my heart as the one thing I could count on to pull me through anything. It was failing me now. How come?
My story is one of rediscovery. I knew that what I had lost had to be found, but I didn't know where to begin my search. I had given up my precious essence, my soul, so long ago, hoping that I would get love, be loved, feel I was lovable. Now, where was I to begin to learn how to get acquainted with that soul, embrace it and treasure it?
If you find yourself in this same dilemma, I ask that you stay with me through the whole process, every small step of the way, for what I know for certain is that you too will discover what I had to open to: that the barren place within me could eventually be a place filled with abundance. It took enormous faith. You must find that faith within you, too, faith that it is possible to regain your own soul and make it the foundational place from which everything else emerges.
Testimonials – What People Are Saying
"This book, simply put, is an amazing read – not only is it a page-turner of a story but a powerful manual for healing. If you have ever loved and then had your heart shattered when you least expected it, this is your book no matter where you are. When Hope Can Kill is mandatory reading. You cannot read this book and come away unchanged."
– Chantal Westerman, GOOD MORNING AMERICA
"This is an important and desperately needed book aimed not just at the woman in an abusive relationship but at anyone who has ever used hope as a self-deception."
– Susan Campbell, Ph.D. , author of The Couple's Journey
"Takes You On An Important Journey"
"When Hope Can Kill" is a must for anyone who is or has been in any relationship where they feel devalued, emotionally or physically hurt, voiceless and powerless. I have read many books on abuse, specifically verbal abuse, that were great at identifying abusive behaviors, characteristics of an abuser or encouragements for those in toxic relationships. This book is different. It is the first book that I have come across that addresses the issues of why someone may find themselves in damaging relationships. It is not just a book. It is a workbook that takes you through important thought provoking questions and exercises to help you get in touch with your soul. It helps you rediscover who you are instead of letting a loved one's hurtful words and actions define you. I believe this book pushes you to think for yourself and move beyond hope. As I have found, sometimes hope can keep you stuck. You hope things will change yet you are afraid to take action and be the force that creates the change for your own life.
Dr. Papillon's expertise and first hand experience with "soul mugging" relationships helped her to create a wonderful tool to help individuals learn about themselves, discover why they find themselves in relationships that are so emotionally damaging, and reclaim their soul. She takes you through a journey of self-examination and then guides you along as you develop a renewed sense of self and strength. I am continually amazed by her ability to identify specific feelings that I am experiencing through this process. At times I would find myself so confused, emotionally numb or in such deep despair that I felt completely alone. Then I would read her reflections after a series of exercises and be completely surprised to find that she knew exactly what I was feeling at that particular time. It helps to know that someone can truly identify with the pain I'm experiencing and can help guide me through it.
I am grateful that I have found this source of guidance. Reading all the other books I felt like a helpless victim but as I started to read this book and work through the questions and exercises I began to feel empowered. Empowered to feel I can make choices and be in control of my life. I never believed I was enough just as I was or that I deserved to have what I truly wanted so I accepted what I believed I deserved. I didn't value myself first so I allowed others to treat me the same way; therefore, it wasn't by chance that I entered into relationships that mugged my soul. This book can help you work through those damaging messages, take action instead of hoping for something different and help you accept and love the beautiful person you were created to be.
It hasn't been easy but I have grown and learned so much about myself through this process. I still have a long way to go but I am excited to see what else unfolds. It is not a quick, easy process but this book will take you on one of the most important journeys of your life. Allow yourself that gift!"
– Amber, Amazon.com January 4, 2012
"Lucy Papillon's passion and clarity are a gift that could quite literally save your life. Her book reaches to the soul of every woman and man staying in an abusive relationship, hoping it will change. This crucially important book shows people how they can free themselves from self-destructive patterns."
– Susan Page , author of Eight Essential Traits of Couples Who Thrive
Turning Terror To Triumph – by Dr. Lucy Papillon
Dr. Papillon's critically-acclaimed book presents a proven way to retain control, gain solice, and keep inner peace in the face of today's often horrific news events.
Amazing Grace from Seven Verses in Psalms
On the day the world changed, terror became rampant. For thousands of years those who wanted to restore their lives turned to Grace in the form of Verses from Psalms. This book by Dr. Lucy Papillon is the answer to prayers prayed since the world as we knew it came to a halt. On September 11, the normalcy of our lives was punctuated by dramatic devastation that shocked and angered us.
As we watched and waited for the recovery of life from the rubble, we knew that more had changed than the New York skyline. One of the great truths of this time is that there is an emptiness in the soul of modern humanity. As one person in a recent survey put it: "9-11 has left a hole – a 'Ground Zero' – in my soul."
A search for answers is pervasive. Yet, response to such human horror and atrocity ultimately takes the shape of questions that we have no answers for. Finally we scream to no one in particular that we must have a word from God.
Because of the terror associated with September 11, religious movements are exploding. People are turning to spirituality as never before, not necessarily housed in buildings because old forms must mutate into new ones as we make our way through these moments lived in utter disbelief.
As we look for ways to assuage our panic, not only about the future but about any personal struggle or turmoil we are experiencing in our lives, TURNING TERROR TO TRIUMPH – AMAZING GRACE FROM SEVEN VERSES IN PSALMS is a perfect resource for solace, comfort, and the peace that passes understanding.
Testimonials – What People Are Saying
"One of the beautiful advantages of this book is that it will be valuable to all those who are undergoing any traumatic situation. I certainly found that to be true for me. It is a day-to-day guide for overcoming all of life's upsets and occasions for terror. Truly this book is an amazing act of grace in allowing people to have the benefit of wise and Godly counsel. Thank you for this gift."
– Betty, Artist & Songwriter
"What a landmark book for me. I terrorize myself more than the media, other people, events, or situations terrify me. This book gave me tools to quit that self-destructive behavior and begin to focus on what can truly calm me down and provide me with an ongoing sense of great peace. I am grateful to you."
– Neal , CEO of a major company